Nesting

Life is a little overwhelming for us at the moment.
We have decided to embark on using in-vitro fertilization to get pregnant. Tomorrow I will meet with my nurse to get my 'hormones'.

Since our first appointment with Dr Lynn Burmeister, a fertility specialist, we have been moving fairly quick like clockwork. Immediately after the consultation, we both did a blood test at Melbourne Pathology and signed for Monash IVF membership. We tee-up the next few appointments for my laparoscopy and Alex's additional semen test. The following week I was admitted for day surgery to undergo laparoscopy. At least we found out why it was difficult for us to be pregnant, one of my fallopian tube is blocked. Dr Lynn didnt waste any time in recommending IVF as a solution.

In the course of 2 weeks, we learnt about what really happens when a couple goes through IVF and the different stages, the potential risks as well as epidemological studies comparing IVF babies with normal babies, IVF mothers with normal mothers. We attended counseling as required by law and had to sign a couple of consent forms to provide instructions on what we do with our remaining fertilized eggs if we are fortunate to have more than we need.

In the midst of it all, I am trying to keep healthy, taking lots of long walks on the beach to digest it all. Spending lots of time alone praying. I feel I am more determined to push myself harder in physical exercise, not sure why. I ran for a long time today, it's my first proper run since I had torn my anterior cruciate ligament on my left knee in August. I guess I must feel I needed to be strong for what's to come. I realized I am not coping entirely well either as I get pretty worked up over minor details on topics like our home building plans, timings for our overseas trip to gain first entry as permanent residents and making sure we enter into a building contract before end of June. Perhaps some Eckhart Tolle may help me through this period...