Looking back but the future beckons

I decided to take up a suggestion from a business professional in the publishing industry and focus today on reflecting on the past. I too believe that it is important to complete that in order to move on the future. My faith implores me to do that on a daily basis, otherwise how do we know what are the lessons learnt and asking God to show how we can improve in our relationships with others, how do we lead by example at work and in life makes it a practising faith.

These are very good questions which I feel everyone should reflect on. Once this is done, say it is done then move on to a new chapter.

1. If the last year were a movie of your life, what would be the genre be? Drama, romance, adventure, comedy, tragedy, a combination.
I wish I could say it was all an adventure but it was more like an emotional discovery - A discovery and acceptance of my own infertility, finding myself and learning how we dealt with these difficulties. At the height of the drama moments, my marriage and self-worth were greatly challenged but triumped in the end just like any good old ending.

2. What were the two or three major themes that kept recurring? These can be single words or phrases.
They were for me:
- Learning to let go of control
- Getting along with less but enjoying it more.
- Less is more

3. What did you accomplish this past year that you are the most proud of? These can be in any area of your life - spiritual, relational, vocational, physical.
- My work in campaigns - learning to lead without authority but influencing with creative ideas.
- Developing a new passion in sewing and gaining patience.
- Learning to trust that He is in control and rediscovering this truth in my life.
- Cultivating my marriage life with a good home environment.

4. What do you feel you should have acknowledged for but weren't?
- Sticking to the IVF process and believing in the process even after several setbacks.
Probably that's the only thing as I succumb to my mind pretty easily, shame on me.

5. What disappointments or regrets did you experience this past year?
- Not focusing on Jesus or doing enough to continue to seek Him
- Not exercising enough and not exercising my dog enough.

6. What was missing from last year as you look back? Look at each major area of your life. Don't focus now on having to do anything about it.
- I feel time is running out with my parents. I still feel I have much to catch up with them. To saviour and honour them.
- My deep connection with the Lord - that deep underlying knowing that He is watching over me and I will be good.

7. What were the major life lessons  you learned this past year? Boil this down to a few, short pithy statements.
- Never to stray away from God. To find ways to connect with Him through music, spiritual talks or books or people is the best medicine for the soul.
- Persevere, press on and just trusting even though it may not make sense.
- Being present with the people I love is the most important gift I can give them.

Now that this is completed, this year is over. I declare it complete!